***I am transferring old blog posts from one site to this one, as Blogspot is much easier to use. During the time I wrote this, I was beginning to make the big decision of where to attend college. Later on, you’ll see what really came of this. It was a wild ride, to say the least!***
July 23, 2010
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what it would take for me to be able to say I trust God 100% in every aspect of my life. When I think of my future, all I really want is to have absolutely nothing that would hold me back from doing anything and everything God calls me to do. I just want to live a life of total dependence in God, relying on Him to meet every need. Maybe this sounds completely foolish to some, but I see this whenever I go to Mexico. I read about this in biographies about missionaries. I want this to be my reality: serving God wherever He wants, but when he closes one door and opens another, being willing and able to jump up and go wherever I’m called.
Okay, so as you can imagine, with being a senior in high school and all one of the biggest questions in my mind is what’s next? Where am I headed after this? For the longest time, I’ve lived with just the mentality of, the college God wants me to go to will be the one that gives me the most money. The cheapest one. The one that offers me a full ride scholarship. Because what sign is clearer than a full ride?
But just yesterday I came to a new realization: where’s the trust in that philosophy? If I were just given a full ride to some school, that question would be answered, and I would pretty much have zero financial issues whatsoever. Well, maybe with my choice of career that might be ideal, but where does the “trusting in God” play in to that?
So, that’s just the thought I had. I’m not at all saying I will turn down any schools that offer large scholarships, just simply thinking about the possibilities. Just thinking of how much God could do if I surrender the subject of money to Him, stand back and let Him work everything out in that amazing way He always does. Because when the situation seems more difficult or impossible to us, it just gives God a better chance to show us how great He is and how much He can really do. And in the end, there’s no denying that God worked everything out, and He gets all the glory, just as He deserves.
God is always there, waiting for you to surrender that one thing you can never imagine giving up. All I can say is give it all to Him, stand back and watch Him work in ways we can’t even imagine. Better than your wildest dreams 🙂
When we walk with the Lord, in the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey
Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus,
but to trust and obey.